Answering the Higher Call

Chapter from EARTH SCHOOL, A Fresh Perspective on the Human Condition

By Moriah Marston, www.transformationaltimes.com

Lately I’ve been feeling a distinctly potent Call from the higher planes. This Call carries a sense of urgency—ethereal, vague, and undecipherable. I wonder what I’m really tuning in to. Is this just a figment of my imagination? Or is something trying to get through to me, to us? The Tibetan urged me to write about the Call this month, interrupting our usual conversation with "Call waiting" from the Masters, trying to get our fully conscious attention.
How many of us feel a Call from the higher planes? Do we know how to respond to it? Is it discounted as simply mindless imagination? Are we embarrassed to admit that we may be electronically connected to higher frequencies that spark the synapses in our brain, hooked to some primal code established eons ago, to fire up just when the planet/ universe needs our attention? When we live according to a sense of calling, we can be more sensitive to the Great Call when it is issued. When we live with blinders on, mechanistically moving through our days, it is harder to hear/ receive larger messages from the universe. If we ever needed to pay attention, now is the time. With humanity seemingly out of control, everyone teetering on the edge, we need to be as tuned in as possible.

Many of my clients are feeling the pressure of these auspicious times. They intuit that something much larger is being asked of them. Eager to be of help, to ward off/ neutralize this awful feeling of collective impotence, we strain to decipher the Call that most of us can only vaguely register in the pit of the stomach, through a strange buzzing in the head or from a feeling of restless imminence.

Trying to decode this amorphous Call, I recognize the message: We must become very clear on our unique soul’s purpose NOW. Opening to our sense of elevated purpose magnetizes the greater Self within to come out into this world, representing our soul’s highest energetic capacity. The Call exclaims, "There is a great birth occurring." We must gather around, supporting each other, joining forces to act as anchors/ acupuncture needles/ magnets for the Higher Forces to assist this stupendous transition. If we can embody our magnitude, our soul’s magnificence, the alchemical balance in this world will dramatically shift to the good.
Terrorists are often trained and then put on hold for years until the day they are given the orders to destroy. We, too, have been trained and put on hold for years—to heal, strengthen, gather wisdom, enjoy earthly life—until we are given the Call. Now is the time—not for destruction, but for CREATION. The Call impresses on me that we must leave the old paradigm, obsolete patterns filled with stagnant energy that left us dry, blank, dead. We must evolve beyond the dulling resignation of defeatedly accepting whatever life presents us. Collectively, we are being asked to set aside our smaller concerns, not repressing them but rather expanding, daring to include and embody our potentiated Self. We must challenge ourselves to open our minds to the Horizon of the Original—where all new inventions, breakthroughs and whirling dervishes of revolution, reside—to carry us into the new paradigm where our minds are joined as one.

Putting myself in the Tibetan's shoes, I would "call" people to claim their souls to stay awake, take the risks and do what they are really passionate about, to open their hearts to each other, to resist going numb, to challenge themselves to see their unique contribution to this current collective spiritual emergence, to be ready at all times to serve, to stop looking back at how things used to be, to speak their truth at all times, to teach others new levels of awareness, to face their shadow. But this is my sense of the Call. What is yours?
What does it mean to receive our "induction papers" from the Universe? If we receive these papers, do we consider going AWOL from the cosmic army? Do we wish to postpone our stint in "the service" and continue going numb, burrowing into complacency to wait out this horror show. I hate being told what to do. Being a rebellious Aquarius, I don’t like take orders from anyone, including the Masters! But not even my obstinate spirit can withstand the roar of cosmic marching orders as they are delivered to me through this great CALL.

Where are these induction papers sending us? What are we being called to do? What can we do? In the war between the Light and dark forces, is the real front simply within as we battle ourselves, always at odds with who we truly are?
Many of us feel hopeless in the face of world events. We don’t know whether to be politically active, to pray/meditate or simply to hope for the best. Overwhelmed by the current wave of chaotic destruction, my own powerlessness sets in when I view our world. I want to fall to my knees in despair and curse the karmic board for sending me to incarnate at a time in human history when so much seems to be going wrong.

The Tibetan urges us to recognize that we must mature, step out of the playpen, and take responsibility for every thought, feeling, and deed. Lazily we put it off—maybe next week, year or lifetime—when we are ready. There is no way to feel ready for this unprecedented collective process. Ready or not, the time has come. Selfish egos aside, we can no longer indulge insular narcissistic agendas. The Tibetan emphasizes that now is the time to "get spiritual." Aren’t we already spiritual? I assume we must shift our focus and values to more urgent Universal demands. We must open our eyes, ears, and hearts to the CALL.

What does it mean to step up to the plate when we have no point of reference for this time in history? When we have so much power to self-destruct and yet, paradoxically, are more united in consciousness as a global village than ever before. For me, stepping up to the plate means that I can no longer hide my Light, dwell in fear, postpone karmic homework, be too tired, too lazy, or too numb, claim "I didn’t know," or indulge in feeling lost/ unloved/ abandoned/ betrayed.
Struggling to respond to this persistent, internal, nudging Call, I wonder how to direct the pressure. Fearful of despair undermining my idealism, I hold back my passion and belief that collectively we can transform the world, and shamefully settle into mediocrity, collapsed by the inevitable "limitations" of the physical plane. It’s so easy to get distracted from the Call. I’m too busy, exhausted, confused, downright frightened, and would much rather withdraw and wait it out. My ego cautions me about sounding delusional: "There is no Great Call, whatever you think you hear, keep it to yourself. Don’t share these higher impressions/ knowings with anyone or they’ll write you off as a flaky New-Ager, some Pollyanna with her feet in the clouds."

But at age 54, I’m old enough to know better. I have never felt more purposeful, driven and determined not to waste a minute, tenaciously holding my own feet to the coals—laboring to stay conscious and open my ears to the Call—the directives from on high instructing us how to successfully birth this "New Cosmic Day." If we can’t freely share common impressions on what is REALLY going on here, how can we unite our force fields to transmute the dark grid of negativity devouring our world? The Call insists: Stop living at the level of ego. Stay awake and tuned in. Trust that humanity is not simply in a nightmare with a horrendous ending. Most importantly, we are being called to discover our unique gifts to this world/each other and to recognize how these gift are an integral part the emerging new consciousness being born as we walk this dangerous razor’s edge together into unified consciousness.
The Tibetan strides forward, hard-wired to my questions as they magnetize his consciousness into mine. He summons:

"CALLING all light workers, teachers, channels of love, students who dare to express their truth. The Masters ask humankind to sign a cosmic petition to end the old paradigm—to join as One. To view many names on a petition demonstrates that self is not alone. This communal awareness allows students to open their collective force field and recognize their birthright, authority, and contract to assist in ushering in the New Cosmic Day. This requires rigorous clearing, self-examination, braving the corridors of the shadow where stored on-going karmic afflictions are waiting to be touched, healed and integrated.

"Dare to embody the Light at the most potent level imagined. Then multiply this Light times 10,000. At least do that much. There is no time to be off-duty. Know that self can transform much faster than ever imagined. Whatever breakthroughs self experiences need to be communicated, shared, expressed. With full consciousness of the darkened energies surfacing for final resolution, dare to be positive. Remember that all make it to the threshold of awakening, and that the earth herself is held within a Universe of Love. Then create a plan of action. Commit to it. Start eliminating all aspects of life that are meaningless, at odds with self’s sense of purpose.

"Don’t underestimate the impact of just one student’s full ensoulment, radiant in light, on the collective consciousness. Receive the joy of being propelled by an inner force that knows exactly what self signed up to do before this incarnation. Self’s mission need not be unduly dramatic, sacrificial, overwhelming. It may be fulfilled through humble, subtle levels of contribution that are no less impactful. Ironically, it is the subtle energy that carries the Call. This subtle energy is streaming in to conduct the rarefied vibrations of the New Cosmic Day. Students are Called to refine their ears, eyes, hearts to attune to the subtle nuances of higher, refined, etheric energies. When trying to decipher a newspaper written in a foreign language, self has the opportunity to feel the energy from the words, subtly picking up the message carried within the form. Trust self’s intuition. Don’t question it to death but rather embrace this knowing with the innocence of a child trusting that the play will emerge. This trust opens portholes of perception. Soon self recognizes the meaning of the newspaper’s foreign words.

"Release pride. Ask each other for help with this experiment. Don’t allow the ego to convince you to hold on to outmoded models of learning. Humbly sit in the Mystery as it impresses the Call on your heart, igniting a soul agreement made well before this incarnation. Know that self has a uniquely important contribution to make and it must be made now! Don’t worry about self’s imperfections. Continue to improve character, thought, deed as self goes forth—the imperfect warrior of light daring to mix with all of the frailties, vulnerabilities and illusions of the human condition

"Humankind’s greatest illusions are the following: Self can’t make a difference. Self isn’t enough. Self isn’t worthy. These are all constructs that feed darkened energies, closing in their deadly grip on the earthly plane. Don’t underestimate self’s impact. It is time to consider self’s mastery. Pretend to be a Master. Go forth as if self’s spiritual life were the most important event in the Universe. Yes, continue to have the feet on the ground, deeply rooted into mother earth, while daring to IMAGINE a new world. Then do whatever self feels CALLED to do.

"Follow the pathway of least resistance, holding the channels of grace well-developed in previous lives that are now storehouses of the soul’s gifts, so that those gifts can be offered at this time for a very precise reason. Practice generosity. Share self’s gifts eagerly, unconditionally, knowing that they carry just the right ingredients for the collective soup that is cooking humankind into its full awakening. Commit to listening within, every morning, mid-day, evening. This weaves one’s externalized consciousness into the sacred fabric of the soul, calling it forth.

As the Masters issue the Call, so too, do the students issue the Call urging their own souls to emerge—urging each other to transform—and urging the world to make its leap. Holding hands at the edge of the cliff, millions of souls take the leap together, demonstrating the trust, wonder, excitement of responding to the Call that moves all of humankind to a greater world in consciousness. This is a time of Renaissance of Spirit - where all illusions of negativity, destruction and suffering melt into the waters of Cosmic Love and are overtaken by this burning mandate for liberation. Hear the Call. Respond to the Call. Be the Call. All will KNOW. And all will be served."
Copyright©2006, School of the Golden Discs

Founder of the School of the Golden Discs, Moriah has been a channel for Djwhal Khul since 1986. As a soul mentor, Moriah includes astrology, dream analysis and past life integration in the intuitive work as a mid-wife to the soul alignment process. Moriah has a private practice in Shelburne Falls, MA and specializes in phone sessions.
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Inspiration!

Previously published in the “Soul Connection” column of Wisdom Magazine
By Moriah Marston www.transformationaltimes.com

Plodding along through a pedestrian existence bankrupts the soul and makes life unnecessarily wearisome. Inspiration is the key ingredient to initiate, sustain and fulfill our passions. Without inspiration all incentive to follow our dreams flat-lines into the inevitable: “Why bother?” Inspiration, the key to taking action, ignites the fuel needed to move forward. How often are you inspired?

Although flooded with ideas of how to spend my precious days, I must await the juice of inspiration to enliven and implement these possibilities. As time rushes by at light-speed, I bemoan all aspects of my life that linger in the wings—hoping for an inspired moment to ignite discipline, drive, openness and readiness. Inspiration links visions of what the soul really wants with our ability to actually make it happen. But it seems that inspiration is a sporadic gift from the Universe—a lucky moment when we connect with the animus that kicks us into gear. Unable to make it happen, we can only hope that every once in a while just enough of it will come our way to quicken the dedication to all soul yearnings hungry to be honored.

I’m filled with incentive when inspiration strikes. But when I finally seize the moment act on it, the enthusiasm has evaporated like a dream. Where does it go? All that’s left is a blah resistance—negative voices eager to counter that treasured moment of afflation. Saddened, I’m stuck by inspiration’s ephemeral nature. Its transient essence, like a Divine Intervention, carries a momentary bleed through from the etheric plane. We can’t chase after the muse that illuminates our passion. Or can we?

How do we rally to fulfill soul assignments when it’s so illusive to access, much less maintain, the flow of inspiration that kindles the commitment to our truest pathway? Are we only meant to touch its Divine Spark for a fleeting moment and then left to drudge through earthly life, trying to stay galvanized by an evanescent moment of flight? Discouraged and cranky, we’re like hungry children who aren’t fed but are still expected to grow.

Why does the Field of Inspiration appear so inaccessible? Maybe we need to learn to reach for it—which serves to enhance our contact with Light. We would discover how to bask in inspiration, deeply absorbing its precious encouragement whenever needed. Then surely we’d write that book, climb that mountain, go for the better job, stay on that diet, confront that person, expand our perspective, release limitations, follow that vision, speak our truth, bounce out of bed in the morning, finish that big project—and love life! Inspiration warms the blood, expands the heart, opens the mind, lightens the body, exhilarates the psyche and illuminates the soul.

Inspiration, the Divine Catalyst that encourages us to go for it, ignites willingness. It bestirs us to experience our divinity by shedding the heavy blanket of impossibility that we use to hide our Light. Inspiration initiates the alchemical process. To liberate our authentic self inspiration’s potent fire melts all blockages. This breakdown of soul toxins can be painful, discouraging and exhausting—the very opposite of inspiration’s buoyancy. We question our initial delight when it results in such misery.

But inspiration—temporarily buried under fallout from the alchemical process it sparked—never abandons the soul. The Field of Inspiration always surrounds us, regardless of our awareness of its exalted energy. We must reach for its genius in the despair-filled moments that stem from cleansing the deadness underlying the “why bother” monster.

Inspire means to breathe in. Without the breath of life we expire. So too does the soul atrophy sans inspiration. We feel deadened inside—unable to receive Life Force when lacking the inspiration that breathes in Universal Chi. This leads to a wearisome depression. Numbing defense structures, comatose-ness based on denial, block awareness of the ever-present inspiration just waiting to be tapped.
Inspiration, the Breath of the Divine, is a wellspring of kundalini energy that prevents the soul flame from being extinguished. Its dynamic illumination propels us on a magic carpet toward a fabulous destination. When we ride this Cosmic Brain Wave, our life shifts from a black and white movie to full technicolor.
Inspiration informs us of the best possible pathway. It reflects life purpose—or reason for being—a reminder of the soul’s original exhilaration when it met with the karmic board to choose an incarnation beautifully suited to its evolutionary needs. The simple act of imagining ourselves breathing in Universal energy reminds us of the original state of inspiration that electrified the incentive to anchor the soul on planet earth one more time.

Sometimes we stifle inspiration because we don’t trust its enthusiasm. Or we may fear looking like fools who actually believe they’ve been struck by a Cosmic Muse that thrills the soul. Others, disconnected from their sources of inspiration, are quick to caution us to keep our feet on the ground and not get carried away by strange provocations unclaimable by the ego. But we’re divinely designed to have a real bounce to our step!

It’s so exciting to receive a moment of inspiration out of the blue—a gift of Divine Intervention that lubricates the dryness of apathetic despair. Our hearts are gladdened. Sluggish motivation is aroused to move us forward through our greatest resistance. Yes, we can’t conjure up inspiration out of nothing. But the notion that inspiration is just a lucky moment obscures our awareness of the wellsprings of uplifting vision always available. Regardless of circumstances, we can make a commitment to hold an open attitude that welcomes inspiration’s ever-present brightness.

We’re mandated to fill up on inspiration. This requires our attention. So we need to explore/identify our unique sources of the Divine Muse. What makes our heart quicken, passion flow, excitement ignite? I dip into the Field of Inspiration in moments of deep silence, listening to music, playing in nature, reading meaningful books, enjoying deep conversation with friends, surrendering to a Higher Presence during episodes of existential emptiness, and/or simply feeling my own essence and what a gift it is to be alive. In addition to these obvious sources of inspiration, unexpected flashes of titillation rally out of the Mystery to hit just the right spot at the right time. These serendipitous gifts respond to our willingness to bask in the wonders of not-knowing that magnetize the Divine Muse to tickle our fancy in the most unpredictable ways as we acknowledge/assert our divine right to be inspired.
The Tibetan, aflame with inspiration, emanates sparks of excitement that ignite even the most humdrum banausic pockets in the collective unconscious. He teaches:
“The soul sustains itself through inspiration. Humankind believes there’s little if any inspiration available while on the earthly plane—certainly a finite resource at best. So few challenge themselves to refuel on inspiration as a major food group for the soul.

“Inspiration is a dimension of energy that surrounds and infuses the earthly plane. Drink a big cup of inspiration from Source daily to fill self with the buoyancy to evolve forth in a state of joyful motivation. Take a minute to consciously breathe in prana, life force, in order to stimulate the great Field of Inspiration available to the soul. To revel in the gift of breath fills self with gratitude for Source’s sustaining abundance. Self is naturally inspired to be fully alive.

“These days of planetary darkness and difficulty beg for greater doses of inspiration to move humankind through the challenges of collective transformation. This uplifting fuel is crucial for meeting the expansion of soul purpose. Inspiration reminds humankind of its true destiny which quickens the heart and strengthens resolve. Its magnetic and contagious nature elevates everyone in its sweep and stimulates the current revolution in consciousness.

“It’s difficult to receive inspiration from customary ego-based venues. Today’s widespread depression stems from a sense of futility related to the inability to give self a boon through these outmoded sources of incentive. Humankind’s sense of purpose has shifted tremendously. The new direction is to serve the soul and hold a greater vision so needed at this collective alchemical juncture. With the loss of ego-based purpose, humankind is floundering -- desperate to grab onto something that buoys and arouses a deeper sense of possibility and catalyst in order to continue living in intendment.

“Humankind's’ ability to swim in the vast Sea of Inspiration that sustains the soul and earthly plane elevates belief systems to truly reflect the Divine Plan. Open to the illumination that guides self along new pathways toward the original horizon awaiting all. Inspiration is the source of energy that shifts perspective, deepens commitment and sparks a spirited alignment with Source.

“Remember to call on the Mysterious Muse at all times, regardless of the lower mind’s absorption in negativity, limitation and fear. Inspiration electrifies the third eye to reveal self’s true destiny. Allow trust to sustain the juices that flow from inspiration’s font of genius. Follow its brainstorm that literally floods the higher mind with illumination. Dance along the yellow brick road of life with a quickened prance. The soul is not meant to monotonously slog through earthly life, drearily attached to a wheel of rote deflation. Rather it has incarnated to fire up world evolution by magnetizing the Universal Cheer and Encouragement that propels all of humankind through the Gateway of Full Potential.”

Copyright©2008 School of the Golden Discs

About the Author

Founder of the School of the Golden Discs, Moriah has been a channel for Djwhal Khul since 1986. As a soul mentor, Moriah includes astrology, dream analysis and past life integration in the intuitive work as a mid-wife to the soul alignment process. Moriah has a private practice in Shelburne Falls, MA and specializes in phone sessions.
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The HEALING CRISIS: Leaving the Numb Zone

The process of healing should be an experience of gradually feeling better as wounds gently fall away and we’re filled with a sense of well being. But the rigors of healing aren’t necessarily neatly packaged. To cure soul wounds requires us to leave the numb zone and become fully alive. We have to feel in order to heal. It takes courage to relinquish the protection that numbness provides and have our hurts fully exposed. First contact with the raw, wild, acute pain hidden just under the surface of our deadness appears insurmountable.
 

Many of us are discovering parts of our unconscious previously blocked from awareness by a dulling veil. We’re beginning to feel more. The ego has difficulty integrating these beclouded levels of distress chronically generated in past lives and reenacted in childhood. Eager for relief from the surfacing throbbing soul pain, we scurry back to our usual sources of anesthetization. But the soul, stifled in its benumbed world, longs for full contact with sensation in order to fully unfold and experience itself. The road to wellness forces us to go through a healing crisis that seems to exacerbate the agony of lifetimes by dropping us into a torturous hell, however temporary. Is this too big a price to pay for total soul health?

The psyche’s innate resistance to full exposure expresses itself in many ways. We may rise above our guts into the intellect, disconnect from our bodies or attempt to transcend human vulnerabilities with spiritual superiority. Or we simply deaden ourselves with whatever is available… drugs, alcohol, shopping, TV, workaholism, depression, lack of self-examination, preoccupation with other people’s issues, attempts to control reality, talking ourselves out of our experience and/or shaming ourselves for any sensitivities. There are countless ways to stupefy ourselves into a near-life experience—one of living just on the edge of reality with rubber coats on just in case life gets too close and we have to touch its mirror of our soul.

These buffer zones of desensitization, although cozy, stifle and suffocate us in monotonous insentience. Eager for the dentist’s Novocain to wear off, everyone wants to relish the taste of their food. All conscious or unconscious habits that blunt our experience need to be renounced. We must be detectives, vigilantly committed to uncovering and tracking areas of unfeelingness—poking at them every which way until we finally encounter a twinge of something deep within. Then we can trace that pang to the rich world of feeling that has somehow escaped the death sentence of our anesthetizing habits and held its integrity of sensation until help finally arrives in the form of penetrating awareness.

The accelerating energies, powerful electrical currents moving through the collective unconscious, are blasting us out of the numb zone. This electricity is catalyzing the Cosmic Life Force—kundalini—to rapidly move through our energy body. When this force hits blockages we’re struck with an intense awareness of the extent of our soul wounds...no longer muffled by numbness. This creates a healing CRISIS. Full exposure to unmedicated soul torments can be so powerful that we’re overwhelmed by shock, disorientation, powerlessness, vulnerability and even shame for having such terrible hurts—as if our soul is irrevocably damaged—crippled for eternity. No wonder we choose the road of numbness! It cauterizes the flow of despair that gushes forth in the wake of these unresolved traumas. The Divine Mandate to heal the soul is daunting in its unveiling of so much unfinished business.

I’m struck by how many of my clients are finally FEELING their lives and becoming aware of disturbing emotions, impulses and buried personalities that clamor for integration. My own healing crisis leaves me begging for new numb zones to diffuse the intensity of my soul’s full emergence. Conflicted about the demands of entry to the emerging consciousness, I have to force myself to remember that this upheaval is a process of healing not destruction, regression or failure. To succumb to discouragement/ depression fuels the false belief that things are only getting worse not better.

The healing crisis creates a crossroads. We can allow ourselves to be seduced by the poison being released in the purging of wounds. This toxicity reinforces the false beliefs that have generated these traumas. Or we can hold a steadfast focus on the awareness that our soul is initiating a cleansing of impurities /distortions in order to make way for the liberated Self. It requires lucidity and strength to hold the bigger picture while being bombarded by the concentrated exposure of wounds to a new Light so powerful that all comatoseness dissipates to expose the core distortions that have troubled our pathway for lifetimes. Regardless of the temporary distress, this is an unprecedented opportunity worthy of humble gratitude.

We may not recognize ourselves during these healing crisises. When the numbness dissipates, disowned parts of self suddenly make themselves felt. We feel like a monster. Denied psychic energy returns doubled in force. Volcanic rage erupts to shatter our identity as a gentle being. We must accept and carefully release this fury.

Buried pain may surface in response to a seemingly small situation that unleashes soul suffering locked up in the Tower of the Insensate just waiting for the Divine Timing that initiates the healing crisis. To ask for the soothing balm of Cosmic Love eases the distress and allows us to integrate its impact without breaking our spirit.

Unacknowledged fear creeps in to flood us with the paralyzing influence of free-floating terror. Every step is filled with trepidation as we release the brainwashing effects of false beliefs that project a world to be dreaded, distrusted, avoided, manipulated. This cleansing breaks the spell of cowardice that closed in around the soul like a dark cloak of doom and weakened its glory in the heartbreaking prison of panic. The heart must be strong in its spiritual roots to hold us steady in the storm of awakening that sets us free to heal at long last.

The healing crisis is unavoidable. But how we respond to it is our CHOICE. To avoid succumbing to the false beliefs that generated the poison being purged, all conclusions need to be suspended. We must open to the Mystery underlying this Sweeping Surgery and trust in the Divine Goodness inherent in the process. To forestall a descent into madness/misery, it’s essential to remember that this crisis/sensitization opportunity is the gateway to unprecedented happiness. We can cooperate with these healing energies by allowing ourselves to be undefendedly available to the impact of the wounds being cleansed. With compassionate self-love we gather the insight/wisdom that arises from dismantling frozen soul pockets while strengthening the spiritual muscles that help us to breathe through this rigorous birth process.

Emanating waves of compassion, the Tibetan teaches:

“At this juncture in human history, all poisons must be cleansed from the soul. The kundalini, sparked by increasing vibrational frequencies, leaves no stone unturned in its uncanny ability to target soul encumbrances. Humankind can transmute the poison oozing from the boils of affliction now being lanced. But this turbulent process appears too difficult to manage/integrate.

“It seems easier to take refuge in the assumption that self is crazed.... with no recourse except to try harder to benumb all sensitivities in order to function. From a distancing insensate cocoon self attempts to wait for the transformational heat to finish its work. But it’s wishful thinking to try to “ride out” such a powerful

passage for humankind.

“No longer able to tolerate anything that would muffle their full embodiment, all souls are materializing into an impeccably clear Divine expression. Crisis blasts of healing indicate a profound spiritual emergence that appears to be an “emergency.” Be prepared for shock when the kundalini bestirs feeling to long-anesthetized hurts. Self must submit to the discomfort that brings attention to these wounds. There’s no need to create suffering when all that is happening is a release of buried pain.

“As numbing defenses succumb to the power of kundalini blasts, self may “hit bottom” fully surrendered to a metamorphosis that unfolds a path of ease, comfort and safety.  
The sheer impact of the uncharted new consciousness is colliding with familiar haunted places that have repeatedly imprisoned the soul. The only choice is to move forward and leave the past behind...having INTEGRATED the wounds, not sidestepping them through a transcendence that circumvents the sensation of the soul.

“The heart—ultimate gateway to the new consciousness—generates and houses feeling. It’s impossible to walk the path of the heart while insentient. If steeped in deadness, self cannot register the heart’s wisdom. Insensitiveness must dissolve. Yield to an aliveness that augments the hearts’ message. Travel inward into the far crevices of the unconscious to release all obstructions to full awakening. Be totally available to the accelerated energies. This is an Initiation that requires spiritual muscles to hold the focus on the New Destiny ... a 5th dimensional state of Joy, Soul Health, Wholeness and Grace.

“This immense healing crisis is also occurring in the intergalactic family because earth and humankind are an essential part of the intergalactic body. The earth plane’s metamorphosis has profound repercussions on the greater Universe. Because of the far-reaching imprint of this healing-crisis Initiation, the Divine Plan has dispatched legions of assistance/support to everyone. All of the Ascended Masters, Angelic Force and Ancient Ones are Present at this turning point ...embracing and encouraging each beloved student to walk through the Cosmic Healing Fire without getting burned…simply transfigured.”

Copyright © 2008, School of the Golden Discs

Moriah Marston, soul mentor in private psychotherapy practice since 1983, combines tools of depth astrology and dream analysis with her intuitive blend with Ascended Master Djwhal Khul’s soul perspective. Moriah has a penetrating multidimensional approach to healing and transformation. She specializes in phone sessions for individuals and couples. Moriah also offers group seminar intensives through her educational center, The School of the Golden Discs, in Colrain, MA. She is author of Earth School (a compilation of 68 articles from her Wisdom column) and Soul Searching with Djwhal Khul, the Tibetan. 413-624-9606, moriah@transformationaltimes.com.  Click here to visit her site!

The Divine Function of Depression

The Divine Function of Depression

Chapter from EARTH SCHOOL, A Fresh Perspective on the Human Condition
by Moriah Marston, www.transformationaltimes.com

Why is everyone so down? Our use of anti-depressants is sky-rocketing. We think nothing of taking all kinds of “medication” for our chronic blues. We give it to our children like candy. Is this collective depression so contagious that even our children have lost their innocent joy? When depressed, we automatically assume that we need to get a prescription, as if anti-depressants were vitamin pills that provide essential nutrition for the soul. What did we do before medication became the “solution” to our problems?

Theoretically, anti-depressants put us back in balance. But they also exact a price for this chemical adjustment to the soul. They flat line our passions, and sexuality into a “manageable” reality. Supposedly, this “balancing” provides us a stable platform on which to do our inner work. However, many of us simply go from one anti-depressant to another without responding to the need of the unconscious for deep exploration. It’s easier for many professionals to simply prescribe medication rather than accompany their clients through the underworld of depression and out the other side.

Admittedly, some people who have crippling chemical imbalances really benefit from medication. But too many of us are throwing our hands up in the air in resignation that we are victims of depression and must submit to the side effects of the all-mighty drugs. Advertising and the media constantly reminds us that we can’t handle our psychic pain on our own—we need pharmaceuticals. Just take a pill and all your problems will vanish.

Only now are we beginning to see some of the harmful effects from these drugs. In the long run, what price will we have to pay for taking the edge off a process that is designed specifically to call attention to the soul? At best, anti-depressants are useful as temporary scaffolding, allowing the psyche to stabilize itself in order to begin the labor of deep inner healing, not for long-term dependency.

Regardless, we are becoming a society steeped in deep depression. What is the Divine function of this plague of blues that has swept throughout our land? Depression is not a disease, although it may be viewed as pathology. It is really a powerful energetic in the psyche designed to create a downward vortex that pulls us into ourselves, freeing up imprisoned aspects of the soul, releasing buried emotions, discovering hidden resources and embracing our inner child. Most of us experience depression at some point in our lives with symptoms of despair, lethargy, immobilization, numbness, hopelessness. Depression also expresses itself through pent-up restlessness; we pace our inner prisons like caged animals.

Yet depression contains a spiritual message—information encoded in our unconscious. What is our psyche trying to tell us? We must be detectives to follow the clues within the depression that lead us to the buried treasure at the nadir of this downward vortex.

I’m certainly not immune to depression. It has persisted since childhood. When I find myself repeatedly sighing out loud, I can feel depression pushing itself up against my efforts to deny it. When I wake up with a leaden heart, depression has infiltrated my dream world. If my body feels heavy, I know that my cells are releasing hidden pockets of depression. When I can’t remember my life’s purpose or meaning, when my inner vision seems blocked, depression has caught me by the coat-tails, broadcasting thoughts of “why bother.”

When I feel nothing but self-contempt, my depression is in full swing. When I find myself aimlessly contemplating how much I “want off” this plane, my depression is in full command.

My mother’s depression led to her suicide when I was three years old. Depression can be genetic—passed down through our karmic lineage as we reincarnate with the same souls over and over again. My mother’s death inspired my psychological work with people—a desire to open the Window of Light and Possibility to all who sit languishing in dark rooms of gloom.

Wrestling with depression, I’ve discovered that it “cooks” me for a precise amount of time and then spits me out from its bottomless darkness into a sun-drenched room in my psyche that has been just waiting for me to emerge into the light. Even as the depression walls close in, a small inner spark reminds me that there is a profound purpose to this process, as I am put in touch with pockets of pain, trauma and emptiness that my soul has carried for centuries. As I find the courage to touch these deep places with self-love and patience, the depression ceases its dark howling and the winds of despair dissipate.

I’ve learned to trust my depression. A vehicle for penetrating travel into self, it opens inner doors that appear to go nowhere but actually lead to great soul riches. I experience a profound lucidity when emerging from a depression cycle. This hard-earned insight and clarity come from the willingness to excavate the soul from its hidden dungeon of anguish. Simply my loving presence (along with the help of the Tibetan and other Divine resources) melts the veils that substantiate my despair. Depression is nothing more than denied imprisoned aspects of self that carry “life sentences”—with no hope for parole.

Depression is our way of saying NO to ourselves at the deepest level. This NO is the ultimate form of self-negation. When we believe that we are living in a loveless universe, we assume that the NO is a cosmic mandate. This generates great shame that our own Source would disown us. Contrite, we modify and debase ourselves by crawling into the depression pit to wait out our cosmic adjudication in divine disgrace.

We can’t run from our depression. It chases us everywhere. Depression is a spiritual crisis. The Depression Wall blockades our connection to the Great Flow that contains our essential birthright of possibility. The soul may sit behind that wall for lifetimes as the illusion of being cut off from divine support entrenches itself. We assume that there is nothing that awaits us that could possibly make any difference in our lives. The soul, determined to be liberated, waits for the inner landscape of bleak despair to break apart. Eventually, the Depression Wall crumbles. Until then, we can’t bypass this lifetime’s soul issues. No matter how painful, we have to surrender to depression’s alchemical effect on our psyches, trusting that we won’t have to endure its crushing strangulation of the soul forever. When locked in the depression box, energy heats up, spiking this level of darkness to a pitch that drives us to rediscover our Source.

The Tibetan, apparently impervious to depression, walks toward me singing songs of delight. He teaches:

“Humankind feels out of control as the disintegration of the old paradigm yields to the New Cosmic Day. This breakdown process stimulates feelings of helplessness and hopelessness. Humankind believes it can’t make a difference in the face of this onslaught of negative energy, which stimulates karmic memories of all past-life traumas endured with apparently no help from the higher planes. The perceived abandonment caused humankind to contract into a consciousness of icy separation, which lowered its “ceiling” (blocked crown chakra). Continuing to bump their heads against that lowered ceiling, humankind dared not stand up straight and reach for the stars.

“Over lifetimes, the bent-over gesture in the soul breaks down one’s innate alignment with the Divine and produces a profound sense of self-diminishment, because the Higher Self feels inaccessible. This generates a powerful matrix of despair that blinds the soul to the Joystream that sustains all beings. Depression roots its tendrils in the blindness. One’s current depression is the result of a long-standing depression for lifetimes. It’s time to stop this karmic legacy. Journey through the barren terrain like torch-bearing pioneers who know, deep in their hearts, that a lush, colorful world awaits them just beyond the veil.

“After much work, many students may be depression-free for months or years, only to have it return. Fearing failure, they may succumb to its obstinate message of woe—certain that there is no place to go, nothing to be done, no opportunity to pursue. Ironically, this subsequent layer of depression indicates that finally the student is accessing/ releasing even deeper soul blockages. Lifetimes of depression are surfacing to full consciousness for transmutation.

“How does one walk through the corridors of despair and not be seduced by this spiritual crisis? Depression ultimately convinces one that life is not worth living—an inversion of the spiritual force field that mandates earthly life, feeds the spirit, and applauds the boundless potential of human existence. The formidability of this inverted force field is daunting to the ego/ personality, especially as it activates all previous soul memories of disconnecting emptiness.

“When depression clamps the soul, self is right up against the portal of entry to a greater consciousness—as the vortex drives self deep inside to touch the most impenetrable inner stockades. The lowered ceiling keeps dropping to push the student to the subterranean level, where unworthiness and self-blame are housed. Depression is a useful tool for surrender. The ego’s attempt to battle it ultimately fails.

“The students MUST ask for HELP from the spiritual plane when confronting the magnetic vortex of their depression. They need enhanced light to tether themselves to the corrected force field that says YES to their being at ALL times. Please ask the Higher Self, Masters, Angelic Force, and Source Itself to be energetically LIFTED up above these darkened waters of pessimism without blocking off self’s much-needed healing interaction with these karmic wounds. It truly is “darkest before dawn.” Widespread depression is the final vortex of the separation illusion—the prelude to the dawning of the New Age. It is the last membrane of isolation or lovelessness before the soul bursts forth in full recognition of its rightful place in the Universe.

“Depression leads the students to the collective core wound of separation. Like an express train into the dark, depression relentlessly clutches self until it has reached is miserable destination—a wasteland in the collective consciousness, where all beings feel exiled from their Creator. This presents the opportunity and challenge to realize the illusion of this imprisoning exile. As more students see beyond the veil, the collective Depression Wall crumbles. At this momentous time in human history, the Divine Mandate of collective awakening requires all of humankind to pierce the shroud of separation/ lovelessness and touch its true Essence.

“As students openly share their experience of depression, they commune with each other, not in misery, but in mutual realization that depression is nothing more than an agreed-upon decision to lock self up in a deep, dark inner vault, and throw away the key. Ironically, it is impossible to throw away the key because self’s conscious awareness IS the key. Simply the intent to find that vault and BELIEVE that it can be opened, freeing all exiled parts of self with the help of the spiritual plane, immediately softens depression’s steely climate. Then the journey inward through this darkened corridor, while formidable, is not torturous punishment but rather a mysterious search for the cosmic clues that uncover the gems banked within the banned parts of the soul. Once reclaimed, the soul rejoices and depression is truly a thing of the past.

“Chronic depression is an intense attachment to non-movement. Many students in previous lives responded to their illusion of disconnect by deciding to sit tight and wait it out—spending centuries awaiting Source’s permission to emerge. But depression’s persistence is the affirming genius within. It knows that if students continue to bump up against this bleak vortex, they will eventually dare to touch its acute pain with loving inquiry. Then the giant bugaboo of soul sickness will recede through the healing touch of cherished connectedness with self, others and the Universe.

“Don’t wait behind the Depression Wall. Accept the insistency of self’s depression as a cosmic mandate to push forward into one’s inner recesses to retrieve the soul’s full essence. Though it may appear to be counter-intuitive, the willingness to move toward self’s depression with open-heartedness melts despair. Don’t push past depression. Rather, release undue attachment to external life to allow deep inward travel. This intention alone alleviates some of the depression. To avoid facing one’s depression prolongs the ride on the karmic wheel of suffering. The inescapable dominion of the soul’s glory insists that all blocks to its shining brilliance be dismantled.

‘Inevitably, humankind will be liberated from depression as it remembers its spiritual essence. As more students create shared rituals for the soul’s passages/ initiations, depression’s greatest weapon—isolation—is rendered impotent.

“Shine the light for each other! Encourage this process of welcoming back exiled parts of self to the Whole, just as Source welcomes Its children back with joyous embrace. As more students heal their depression, others will boldly defy the collective false beliefs of futility and despair. Accompany others into their dark pits of separation to remind them that disconnect is impossible. Then the collective negativity will break apart like the great arctic ice, allowing the waters of Cosmic Consciousness to flow freely, washing away all vestiges of depression into a titanic waterfall of Boundless Possibility and Joy!’

About the Author

Founder of the School of the Golden Discs, Moriah has been a channel for Djwhal Khul since 1986. As a soul mentor, Moriah includes astrology, dream analysis and past life integration in the intuitive work as a mid-wife to the soul alignment process. Moriah has a private practice in Shelburne Falls, MA and specializes in phone sessions.
Click here to visit her site!

Copyright©2006, School of the Golden Discs

Answering the Higher Call

Chapter from EARTH SCHOOL, A Fresh Perspective on the Human Condition
By Moriah Marston, http://www.transformationaltimes.com/

Lately I’ve been feeling a distinctly potent Call from the higher planes. This Call carries a sense of urgency—ethereal, vague, and undecipherable. I wonder what I’m really tuning in to. Is this just a figment of my imagination? Or is something trying to get through to me, to us? The Tibetan urged me to write about the Call this month, interrupting our usual conversation with “Call waiting” from the Masters, trying to get our fully conscious attention.
How many of us feel a Call from the higher planes? Do we know how to respond to it? Is it discounted as simply mindless imagination? Are we embarrassed to admit that we may be electronically connected to higher frequencies that spark the synapses in our brain, hooked to some primal code established eons ago, to fire up just when the planet/ universe needs our attention? When we live according to a sense of calling, we can be more sensitive to the Great Call when it is issued. When we live with blinders on, mechanistically moving through our days, it is harder to hear/ receive larger messages from the universe. If we ever needed to pay attention, now is the time. With humanity seemingly out of control, everyone teetering on the edge, we need to be as tuned in as possible.
Many of my clients are feeling the pressure of these auspicious times. They intuit that something much larger is being asked of them. Eager to be of help, to ward off/ neutralize this awful feeling of collective impotence, we strain to decipher the Call that most of us can only vaguely register in the pit of the stomach, through a strange buzzing in the head or from a feeling of restless imminence.
Trying to decode this amorphous Call, I recognize the message: We must become very clear on our unique soul’s purpose NOW. Opening to our sense of elevated purpose magnetizes the greater Self within to come out into this world, representing our soul’s highest energetic capacity. The Call exclaims, “There is a great birth occurring.” We must gather around, supporting each other, joining forces to act as anchors/ acupuncture needles/ magnets for the Higher Forces to assist this stupendous transition. If we can embody our magnitude, our soul’s magnificence, the alchemical balance in this world will dramatically shift to the good.
Terrorists are often trained and then put on hold for years until the day they are given the orders to destroy. We, too, have been trained and put on hold for years—to heal, strengthen, gather wisdom, enjoy earthly life—until we are given the Call. Now is the time—not for destruction, but for CREATION. The Call impresses on me that we must leave the old paradigm, obsolete patterns filled with stagnant energy that left us dry, blank, dead. We must evolve beyond the dulling resignation of defeatedly accepting whatever life presents us. Collectively, we are being asked to set aside our smaller concerns, not repressing them but rather expanding, daring to include and embody our potentiated Self. We must challenge ourselves to open our minds to the Horizon of the Original—where all new inventions, breakthroughs and whirling dervishes of revolution, reside—to carry us into the new paradigm where our minds are joined as one.
Putting myself in the Tibetan's shoes, I would “call” people to claim their souls to stay awake, take the risks and do what they are really passionate about, to open their hearts to each other, to resist going numb, to challenge themselves to see their unique contribution to this current collective spiritual emergence, to be ready at all times to serve, to stop looking back at how things used to be, to speak their truth at all times, to teach others new levels of awareness, to face their shadow. But this is my sense of the Call. What is yours?
What does it mean to receive our “induction papers” from the Universe? If we receive these papers, do we consider going AWOL from the cosmic army? Do we wish to postpone our stint in “the service” and continue going numb, burrowing into complacency to wait out this horror show. I hate being told what to do. Being a rebellious Aquarius, I don’t like take orders from anyone, including the Masters! But not even my obstinate spirit can withstand the roar of cosmic marching orders as they are delivered to me through this great CALL.
Where are these induction papers sending us? What are we being called to do? What can we do? In the war between the Light and dark forces, is the real front simply within as we battle ourselves, always at odds with who we truly are?
Many of us feel hopeless in the face of world events. We don’t know whether to be politically active, to pray/meditate or simply to hope for the best. Overwhelmed by the current wave of chaotic destruction, my own powerlessness sets in when I view our world. I want to fall to my knees in despair and curse the karmic board for sending me to incarnate at a time in human history when so much seems to be going wrong.
The Tibetan urges us to recognize that we must mature, step out of the playpen, and take responsibility for every thought, feeling, and deed. Lazily we put it off—maybe next week, year or lifetime—when we are ready. There is no way to feel ready for this unprecedented collective process. Ready or not, the time has come. Selfish egos aside, we can no longer indulge insular narcissistic agendas. The Tibetan emphasizes that now is the time to “get spiritual.” Aren’t we already spiritual? I assume we must shift our focus and values to more urgent Universal demands. We must open our eyes, ears, and hearts to the CALL.
What does it mean to step up to the plate when we have no point of reference for this time in history? When we have so much power to self-destruct and yet, paradoxically, are more united in consciousness as a global village than ever before. For me, stepping up to the plate means that I can no longer hide my Light, dwell in fear, postpone karmic homework, be too tired, too lazy, or too numb, claim “I didn’t know,” or indulge in feeling lost/ unloved/ abandoned/ betrayed.
Struggling to respond to this persistent, internal, nudging Call, I wonder how to direct the pressure. Fearful of despair undermining my idealism, I hold back my passion and belief that collectively we can transform the world, and shamefully settle into mediocrity, collapsed by the inevitable “limitations” of the physical plane. It’s so easy to get distracted from the Call. I’m too busy, exhausted, confused, downright frightened, and would much rather withdraw and wait it out. My ego cautions me about sounding delusional: “There is no Great Call, whatever you think you hear, keep it to yourself. Don’t share these higher impressions/ knowings with anyone or they’ll write you off as a flaky New-Ager, some Pollyanna with her feet in the clouds.”
But at age 54, I’m old enough to know better. I have never felt more purposeful, driven and determined not to waste a minute, tenaciously holding my own feet to the coals—laboring to stay conscious and open my ears to the Call—the directives from on high instructing us how to successfully birth this “New Cosmic Day.” If we can’t freely share common impressions on what is REALLY going on here, how can we unite our force fields to transmute the dark grid of negativity devouring our world? The Call insists: Stop living at the level of ego. Stay awake and tuned in. Trust that humanity is not simply in a nightmare with a horrendous ending. Most importantly, we are being called to discover our unique gifts to this world/each other and to recognize how these gift are an integral part the emerging new consciousness being born as we walk this dangerous razor’s edge together into unified consciousness.
The Tibetan strides forward, hard-wired to my questions as they magnetize his consciousness into mine. He summons:

“CALLING all light workers, teachers, channels of love, students who dare to express their truth. The Masters ask humankind to sign a cosmic petition to end the old paradigm—to join as One. To view many names on a petition demonstrates that self is not alone. This communal awareness allows students to open their collective force field and recognize their birthright, authority, and contract to assist in ushering in the New Cosmic Day. This requires rigorous clearing, self-examination, braving the corridors of the shadow where stored on-going karmic afflictions are waiting to be touched, healed and integrated.
“Dare to embody the Light at the most potent level imagined. Then multiply this Light times 10,000. At least do that much. There is no time to be off-duty. Know that self can transform much faster than ever imagined. Whatever breakthroughs self experiences need to be communicated, shared, expressed. With full consciousness of the darkened energies surfacing for final resolution, dare to be positive. Remember that all make it to the threshold of awakening, and that the earth herself is held within a Universe of Love. Then create a plan of action. Commit to it. Start eliminating all aspects of life that are meaningless, at odds with self’s sense of purpose.
“Don’t underestimate the impact of just one student’s full ensoulment, radiant in light, on the collective consciousness. Receive the joy of being propelled by an inner force that knows exactly what self signed up to do before this incarnation. Self’s mission need not be unduly dramatic, sacrificial, overwhelming. It may be fulfilled through humble, subtle levels of contribution that are no less impactful. Ironically, it is the subtle energy that carries the Call. This subtle energy is streaming in to conduct the rarefied vibrations of the New Cosmic Day. Students are Called to refine their ears, eyes, hearts to attune to the subtle nuances of higher, refined, etheric energies. When trying to decipher a newspaper written in a foreign language, self has the opportunity to feel the energy from the words, subtly picking up the message carried within the form. Trust self’s intuition. Don’t question it to death but rather embrace this knowing with the innocence of a child trusting that the play will emerge. This trust opens portholes of perception. Soon self recognizes the meaning of the newspaper’s foreign words.
“Release pride. Ask each other for help with this experiment. Don’t allow the ego to convince you to hold on to outmoded models of learning. Humbly sit in the Mystery as it impresses the Call on your heart, igniting a soul agreement made well before this incarnation. Know that self has a uniquely important contribution to make and it must be made now! Don’t worry about self’s imperfections. Continue to improve character, thought, deed as self goes forth—the imperfect warrior of light daring to mix with all of the frailties, vulnerabilities and illusions of the human condition
“Humankind’s greatest illusions are the following: Self can’t make a difference. Self isn’t enough. Self isn’t worthy. These are all constructs that feed darkened energies, closing in their deadly grip on the earthly plane. Don’t underestimate self’s impact. It is time to consider self’s mastery. Pretend to be a Master. Go forth as if self’s spiritual life were the most important event in the Universe. Yes, continue to have the feet on the ground, deeply rooted into mother earth, while daring to IMAGINE a new world. Then do whatever self feels CALLED to do.
“Follow the pathway of least resistance, holding the channels of grace well-developed in previous lives that are now storehouses of the soul’s gifts, so that those gifts can be offered at this time for a very precise reason. Practice generosity. Share self’s gifts eagerly, unconditionally, knowing that they carry just the right ingredients for the collective soup that is cooking humankind into its full awakening. Commit to listening within, every morning, mid-day, evening. This weaves one’s externalized consciousness into the sacred fabric of the soul, calling it forth.
As the Masters issue the Call, so too, do the students issue the Call urging their own souls to emerge—urging each other to transform—and urging the world to make its leap. Holding hands at the edge of the cliff, millions of souls take the leap together, demonstrating the trust, wonder, excitement of responding to the Call that moves all of humankind to a greater world in consciousness. This is a time of Renaissance of Spirit - where all illusions of negativity, destruction and suffering melt into the waters of Cosmic Love and are overtaken by this burning mandate for liberation. Hear the Call. Respond to the Call. Be the Call. All will KNOW. And all will be served.”

About the Author

Founder of the School of the Golden Discs, Moriah has been a channel for Djwhal Khul since 1986. As a soul mentor, Moriah includes astrology, dream analysis and past life integration in the intuitive work as a mid-wife to the soul alignment process. Moriah has a private practice in Shelburne Falls, MA and specializes in phone sessions.
Click here to visit her site!

Copyright©2006, School of the Golden Discs

Dreams: The Gateway to the Unconscious

I don’t know what I would do without my dreams! They map my inner world, buffering me from the ever-present chaos looming in my unconscious. Through their images I make contact with the myriad of sub-personalities within. Dreams come bearing messages, however obscure, teasing my knowing out into the daylight of waking consciousness. They evoke the detective within me as I hunt for clues in their maze of incongruity and ridiculousness.
These clues, disguised as pointless stories and colliding images capturing only the absurd, nonsensical, random loose ends of my inner life, reveal the psyche’s wisdom as it valiantly pulls out all the stops to get my attention! It knows what is going on with me at deeper levels even if I don’t. My responsibility is to learn how to listen to my psyche and make sense of its unique language. The dream language of images and symbols is both mysterious and obvious. Sometimes our dreams are downright corny as our psyche works to show us the blind spots right under our nose.
It is fascinating how Source created such a complex creature when It created humankind. I have wondered why Source split our psychic structure in two parts—one to be so easily experienced at a conscious level and the other to be forever just out of reach in the deep waters of the unconscious. It seems like “mission impossible” that we have to integrate our unconscious into our consciousness in order to be fully aligned. How can we integrate something that is specifically designed to be unknowable? Why didn’t Source simply allow us to have full conscious reign over the unconscious?
The Tibetan is often referred to among the Great White (Light) Brotherhood (the group of enlightened Masters working with the earth plane) as the Great Psychologist. He and I share a fascination for the workings of the human psyche. He reminds me that if we had full conscious access to the unconscious terrain, our egos would have a field day censoring our inner life. Any “unacceptable” aspects of self that our egos might judge and disown would be cut off from our psychic juice and allowed to wither away. These aspects of self are therefore banished to a distant corner of our psyche (the shadow) where all the “undesirables” are corralled off in order not to contaminate the “righteousness” of the rest of our being.
So our shadow must live, unthreatened by our conscious belief systems, far below our waking knowing in the underbelly of our being. In this world of shadow land our unconscious fosters the growth and development of all aspects of self not yet acceptable to our current identity. If we were to have full exposure to this underworld reality, we might be thrown off balance. No one is eager to claim his or her darkness and wear it like a badge. So we keep it neatly tucked away from the boundaries of our conscious self.
However, as night falls (even our persistent egos need rest) then it is the witching hour. This is the hour when our censors punch out on their time clock as they leave their days work, all defenses checked and working—ego in tact. Then the hobgoblins from the dark shadows within start to shout out - to voice their concerns—to make noise—to move about. Now it is their time for full expression as they bring forth our soul through shadow. If we are “lucky,” we are completely unconscious of this activity. We are simply sleeping the night away, eager to return to morning’s light, unthreatened and secure in our known self.
However, Source gave us one foolproof linkage point between the unconscious and the conscious—our dreams. Upon waking up to the rising sun we bring back with us evidence of our bizarre journey into shadow land. We bring a story, one that usually makes no sense upon initial recall.
If we are willing to lovingly hold that story almost like one would hold a vulnerable alien being in the palm of one’s hand, we can learn to listen to this entity who speaks so strangely to us. The more we listen, the more we begin to understand dream language. While we may often recoil from their messages desperate to write them off as foolish nonsense, if we allow ourselves to digest what we are being shown, we are alchemized. Our conscious self finally embraces the unconscious.
The Tibetan teaches:

“The heart’s capacity to love and accept human nature allows one to receive the full impact of the unconscious material as it pushes up into full awareness. If one can accept one’s shadow, so richly expressed through dreams, one can accept the full human condition and all of the apparent aberrations of Source. As the student lovingly embraces this dark material, he/she realizes that what appears to be a distortion of one’s divinity is actually a poetic, imagaic description of soul material that lands outside the confines of one’s belief system.
‘In this terrain the soul is free to unleash its wildness, uncivilized or untamed by the expectations of the ego—rich in passion—in juice—in life force. Without this realm, conscious life would be a desert, dry and lifeless. It would reflect too much light, blinding the student into the illusion that light is all there is. The deep, dark waters that lubricate and cleanse the soul are essential to the Divine Feminine and must be accepted and embraced. In this embrace, the light and dark unite in mystical harmony”.

Trying to remember dreams is like fishing with one’s hands. Dreams are slippery, wet and illusive. They tease our consciousness as our logical mind tries to capture their stories in recognizable language and story line. Most of our dreams slip away like secret messengers, revealing the impossible line between the world of the awake and the world of the asleep. If we are lucky enough to catch a dream, we must immediately rush to save it in our dream journals, scraps of paper dedicated to honoring these fleeing moments of contacting the unknowable within.
When we wait too long the dream may vanish, leaving us with a vague sensation that we dreamt something but can’t quite put our finger on it. Ironically, if we decide to ignore our dream, the dream often continues to swim along side of our waking consciousness, vague and blurry but annoying us with a distinct feeling that there is something there that needs our attention. It is the same annoying feeling when we stop mid-sentence, having just forgotten our thought. Oh, how we hunger for integration at that point, for just a momentary opportunity to connect the dots within our soul and see the big picture as it is reflected through our underground friends—the characters that live in our dream world.
I first began to take my dreams seriously when I was thirty-nine years old. I was entering my mid-life crisis, deep rumblings beginning to resound in my soul. I had been channeling the Tibetan for three years. This period had been one of light, light and light. When we open our channels we are often infused with heightened light vibrations as we access realms beyond the earth plane. These realms are etheric in nature—lighter, finer, and more rarefied in frequencies. While this is initially experienced as highly pleasing, expanding and uplifting, eventually there may be a counter-reaction in the psyche.
As I was bathing myself in the heightened light factor known as Djwhal Khul, this higher vibratory rate was flushing out dormant shadows in my soul. Consciously I was focusing on spirit, love, compassion and other “spiritually correct” qualities while unconsciously my dark side was beginning to stir with a vengeance! I was able to keep a clean separation between these two worlds for three years. Then my unconscious broke loose. I could no longer resist the internal pressure from my own shadow.
My dreams were filled with dark, frightening images. These images pushed up into my mind screen even when I was only momentarily closing my eyes. I felt barred from the angelic realm as the forces in my underworld caught my soul and began to tug it down, down, down. Night after night I was tormented by fearful images both personal and collective. Several months of nightly terror through a repeating nightmare of being pursued by Nazi’s drove me into Jungian dream analysis. I wanted to get away from these “bad guys” and return to my light-filled “high-level” reality. However, these “bad guys” would not loosen their grip. Now that they had my full attention they weren’t going to let go. I began to wonder what was wrong with me. Was I being possessed by the dark force in retaliation for all the light work I was doing?
Within the first month of dream analysis these nightmares receded. Finally psyche had both my attention and commitment to exploring my shadow lands. I soon realized that it wasn’t the dark force taking over my being but rather my own unique underworld drama trying to participate in my transformational process. Light magnetizes dark. It was time for me to dig into my dream life and bring the hidden aspects of myself into full consciousness. I was amazed at their potency. Within each dream were characters, real beings, who carried strong emotional charges. These characters were highly differentiated, specifically created to carry energies that my soul had cast off earlier in this lifetime or perhaps in past lives.
With my channel opened and higher self accessed it was time to tie in all the old threads, leaving no stone unturned in my efforts toward complete wholeness. Initially I felt embarrassed and exposed by these dark dream beings. They reflected parts of me that my ego refused to accept. I teased myself that perhaps these were someone else’s dreams, surely not mine!
With the encouragement of my analyst I began to claim these aspects of my soul, accepting each character as myself. My curiosity and flair for drama moved me into their reality, wondering what their message or teaching might be. As I embraced each one, they gifted me with heightened energy that had been bottled up in the dark recesses of the basement within my soul. As I allowed the dream characters full expression, I realized that there was nothing wrong with any of them.
I learned to appreciate their divinity as much as I appreciate the divinity within a bouquet of flowers. Allowing my underworld sub personalities to have an impact on me, I saw them as raw gems waiting to be polished. Polishing them with love and acceptance, I began to embrace this bushel basket of jewels within my psyche. Soon I began to hunger for my dreams, eager to see what gifts I could pull up from the rich, dark fertile lands of my unconscious.
So, daily I eagerly awake, dream journal close at hand, hoping each morning I will be given another story revealing the next layer of my soul. Deeper and deeper I go in this quest for soul-knowledge. Working consciously with my dreams creates a feeling of connection and integration. I no longer fear the monsters deep within my psyche. I welcome and celebrate my internal mystery through the stories told by my psyche’s brilliance.
Dreams guide me into the most profound levels of my passion. No longer do I fear being blinded by the light. With my awareness firmly anchored and rooted in the soil of my uncensored self, I am free to stretch out into greater and greater realms of light. Spinning stories of the evolving self and releasing our fears, dreams guide us into our deepest truth. Dreams are the rainbow bridge between the known and the mystery—moving us into the land where soul and spirit become one.

Chapter from Soul Searching with Djwhal Khul, the Tibetan by Moriah Marston
www.transformationaltimes.com
Copyright©2002, School of the Golden Discs

Sensitivity

Are you a “sensitive?” Do people give you a hard time for feeling too much? Is your psyche’s skin molting off to reveal tender little shoots of awareness that acutely grasp every little nuance of reality?
Environmental sensitivity, a relatively new “dis-ease,” is increasing. The body’s delicate system is overburdened by toxins in our habitat and can no longer tolerate the buildup of poisons. This physical challenge mirrors a similar psychological/spiritual experience of heightened sensitivity to all energies. We’re losing our armor, coping mechanisms and ability to accept toxicity on any level. Physical environmental sensitivities pale in comparison to our increasing Cosmic Environmental Sensitivities.
Overtaxed with the task of assimilating and transmuting toxic debris, we’re also overloaded by the impact of the heightened vibrations that are blasting apart all blockages in the soul body. This creates a blizzard of karmic offscourings drenched with more soul toxins than the worst environmental poisons. Our poor little energy bodies are saturated, leaving us exposed and sensitive.
Maybe the Divine Plan wants us to get good and sick of the human distortions that dim our Light. Then, from a place of sheer repulsion, all the past life garbage stored in the soul will be rejected because we have simply become too sensitive to tolerate. When we all agree that sensitivity is a good thing, we can accept the experience of heightened exposure as our collective skin melts away under the cosmic heat of transformation that disallows our density to prevail in the new paradigm.
This mandates our departure from the numb zone. At this cosmic juncture evolution requires us to feel EVERYTHING in order to pick up on and engage with the subtle energies bombarding our world. To become a sensitive means that we are ready to embrace the vast infusion of sensation now filling our physical, emotional, mental and spiritual bodies. Rather than shy away from this voluminous exposure, we must naturalize its impact. To fulfill our responsibility as “torch bearers” for the New Age, we need to sense what is happening on the subtle levels and open in a way that our souls have not yet experienced on the earth plane. In spite of intensifying vulnerability, we’ve all agreed to become skinless in order to collaborate with the unfolding Great Change. Contact with subtle energy realms amplifies as we experience the bleed through from other dimensions at long last. We’re learning to “pick up” on refined gradations of energy through feeling, intuition, body sensation only perceptible through expanded sensitivity. Then latent gifts of clairvoyance, clairaudience, telepathy and psychism will abound as we claim our birthright to really tune in, through increased availability for Cosmic Contact, and ultimately comprehend the underlying Template of Life.

About the Author

Founder of the School of the Golden Discs, Moriah has been a channel for Djwhal Khul since 1986. As a soul mentor, Moriah includes astrology, dream analysis and past life integration in the intuitive work as a mid-wife to the soul alignment process. Moriah has a private practice in Shelburne Falls, MA and specializes in phone sessions.
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